Dont stop the silence in this devil town!

This is another not favourable post
but just to express something out

I hate the feeling
when the direction is blocked
everything seems to be misty
the worst thing is that


there is no hand to pull you up
and hold you tight

and say,
I do care for you
everything will be alright


no..
this is kind of a solitary feeling





nothing much to write now
but I will post up some cute photos
(not photos of me)
but something cute and excitement
for me

just stay tuned
Thanks

signing off

tgiF

was not feeling well yesterday and today getting better d ^^

Thanks God it's Friday
so I could rest at home at weekend
actually Friday is my offday
but went for replacement class
then early in the morning d sorethroat, feeliing very warm etc

yesterday back from home
mum saw that I really dont feel well
and cooked abalone porridge for me.. heheh
It's simple but nice
cuz I got no appetite for other food than porridge
had a bad sorethroat
then I finished 3 big bowls of the porridge ^^

after that, thought to take a short nap at 6.30pm
but eventually woke up at 1.30am.. lol
after that, brushed my teeth and all
then continue to sleep at 2 something and
awake in 6 something

BUT...
body aching and no energy
eyes were very tired still
so, I went to bed again
hahah.. long time didnt sleep so well

now, I feeling quite ok d
will recover soon :)

but, this time,
my illness make me realised that
some ppl who should care more about me
but didnt
for those who are not suppose to treat me that well
care for me much

Should I be happy? Or speechless?
both, I guess

Before I end my post for the last day of Oct 2009,






HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SELINA REN!!!! (^^, v

I've been admiring her for yearsss
She is beautiful, kind, gentle, smart etc..

Hope there is a chance for me to meet her :)

That's all Folks

signing off
xoxo

Wake Up. Stand Up. Never Give Up

I dont know why
recently I got not much appetite to eat
but of course is still eat a lot compare with a normal girl
never have a problem with that

I got back some of my assignments marks
and waiting for the rest
wanna know my all accessment marks asap

I cant really be happy in these few days
is it because of I few days got no Lavender? lol
I cant really laugh naturally in these few days
I feel like there are some hooks on my facial muscle
or is it in my heart?

Anyway, I wanna think of the bright sight and
show gratitude: ( ok, it's random, but I just want to :P)

my sweet family: Dad, Mum, Ko ko & Er ko
are ppl who will always
call me
hold my hands
hug me
kiss me
etc.
but the hardest one I think is
tolerate with me

I know they are always care and love me
and I do :)

but IM SORRY
that Im imperfect
and I know sometimes
I break your hearts
IM SORRY :(

my a tah (granpa in hakka)
will always hold my hands and call me as well
same to my a neh grandma

Im a super lucky girl
I appreaciate all these a lot

I know what I achieved today
is still far far away from perfection
or excellent achievement

But, I will do my Best!

currently: the good news are
Im free from assignment!
I was very happy and relief at the beginning, but now.. err.. ok ok only =,=

Im free from tests
and this week having my Last Block Lecture for sem 2

Final examination are around the corner
3 weeks left :(

gomen, no pics for today
&
&
&
that's all folks!


ps: UP, UP & UP Jia Yuen!!!

signing off with a
complicated feeling

It has been 4 months

11.10.09

Am I on the right track?
Im lost.

Is there really someone who understand me?
But I can understand if you dont.

It's getting dry d.

The hands

Here's a story I heard from mum lately
a true story:

there is a dad who really love her daughter
and never beat her before

but, one day
the lil girl doodled on his dad's
brand new expensive car
his dad was mad at her
but he didnt scold her at all
instead, he grabbed a nylon string
and tied her wrists up
hung her on the wall

when the dinner is ready,
only he remebered about the
punishment to her beloved daughter
he reached to his daughter
the daughter was still crying
but, her both wrists was
seriously dark

then, he released the knots faster
and sent her to the hospital
but, the doc said:
it's too late
the cells in her wrists are all dead
there is only one choice,
cut them off or else
the dead cells would
spread all over her body

under the circumstance,
the father got no choice
but to CHOP off the two lil wrists

weeks later,
the car is fixed and sent back to the father
the lil girl saw the car, and asked him:
dad, can you give me my hands now?
dont hide them anymore please
...........................
..........
.................
.........................

the lil girl was only 5 years old
she thought that the car is fixed
and his dad was just wanna punished her
and so hide her hands

the guilty in his dad's heart
will not fade
Forever



this story reminds me that
never let my anger control over me
if not, I may done something that
I dont mean to do it and
regret after that

sometimes, I do have a really bad temper
I admit this

Assignment=Excitement? H*ll NO!

many things to be expressed out of my lungs
out of my mind
out of my heart

but there is always an opportunity cost
sacrifice entertainment, walking here and there etc moments

argh! lock the time please...

Fortunately, LAVENDER always be there
and make my day! :)




cute right, the cloud?
dont say no!
lol


yeah! iLOVEcars
love to drive
love my ride
but it's really tiring
that I fell asleep in these 2 weeks
when I reached back home

GOOD DAY PAL :)
for my friends who are currently
having PMR or any test

GOOD LUCK :)
but please dont put on the fire in your
classroom like what that student did
lol

it'stimetospillallthe
beansoutandwipeitoff

I miss the 3 men in overseas
1 man in east of M'sia

love you, zai ^^

signing off
xoxo